i listened to dirty little secret until i fell asleep.

i feel torn in a way i can't explain. there are some promises that i kept. and this would be one of them. and it doesn't make sense to me.

how could it? why do i feel like this?

there are things that stay with you. things you leave behind. things that resurface when you aren't looking.

and if i could gather all my disconnected thoughts i would share them with you.

but in my head and heart i know it doesnt make sense.

however there is one thing i've learned. i'm no longer afraid.

if i had the chance my love, I would not hesitate to tell you all things I've never said before

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